Sometimes I do read more news or listen to more talk radio but this girl that feels too much cannot handle listening to everything going on in our world. So I start most mornings with just listening to NPR's UpFirst. It is just enough of what I need/want to be in the know about, + I can always dive in more on my own if I want to. Steve Inskeep makes my mornings! Monday when he quoted Donald Trump I almost spit my toothpaste out. He didn't have to make a comment, just read what Mr. Trump said and it speaks for itself. Steve Inskeep is honest and blunt without being smug or rude and asks the questions that should be asked. 

Today I knew El Salvador would be talked about.

It's rough being what my friend Julia calls "a coconut". Brown on the outside, white on the inside. It kind of offended me at first, because though I knew it, I'd never been referred to that way. But it is who I am. I enjoy brunch and yoga like all the white girls but would never turn down a pupusa or be afraid to go to the sketchy taco place. I am both proud of this country and saddened by it. I am both concerned about being careful and protective of its borders and pro the "American Dream".

I AM The American Dream. I am blessed, lucky, fortunate, privileged. My mother suffered for me to be where I am today. It is only by God's grace that I am here. That I live in a house with finished floors, heat, plumbing. 

TPS is why I was allowed to stay here. And though I have not been under TPS for a long time now, nor do I think that I am in danger or losing my right to be here. It does cross my mind. 

From when they are toddlers we tell our kids those mantras we think will help them be who they are where they are, yet want them to excel in everything they do. We use those phrases you tell yourself to make you feel better about not losing the weight or quitting the job. The lines you repeat to allow yourself to be lazy. Though I agree that you should work with what you have and make the most of what you're given... What are we teaching our children when we tell them that "you get what you get and you don't throw a fit" or to "make it do, or do without"? Don't we all want better for them? For ourselves, for our community, for those around us, for our world? 

You get what you get and you don't throw a fit, but what if what you get is nothing?

El Salvador TPS convo - at 4:35